Statement of Unbelief

continued from The Israelites I Love to Hate

Help me overcome my unbelief.  Mark 9:24

My confusion is continually before me, and the shame of my face hath covered me.  Psalm 44:15

You see, I say I believe but have gotten really good at hiding my unbelief.  The sin of unbelief has been placed right where it belongs, behind closed doors.  Shame has kept it there.  Satan has been so happy. 

I have no self-control. 

Shame. 

My past is too ugly. 

Shame. 

My heart is still not fully healed. 

Shame. 

I do not believe. 

Shame. 

Naked in the garden. 

Shame. 

Shame was not something God ever intended for our lives.  Satan has used shame to his advantage since the beginning of man.    

There is no room in my heart to believe and not believe.  I cannot believe some of God’s word but not all of it.  I cannot believe that God will bring me halfway.  Remember that is what those Israelites believed.

So we see that they could not enter in because of their unbelief.  Hebrews 3:19

Where does God want to take you that your unbelief is keeping you from?  What are your doubts, fears and actions saying about your belief or unbelief?  Write it out in a statement of unbelief and read how little your faith is. 

Me?  He wants me to satisfy myself with Him and not with food.  So my statement of unbelief is this...I do not believe God can satisfy me like a hunk of chocolate peanut butter fudge can.  That is what my actions are telling me.  Oh how saying that pricks my heart to the core. 

Let’s say you want to spend more time in prayer but you just can’t seem to find the time.  Make it a statement of unbelief.  I do not believe God is worth spending time with in prayer.  Ouch, that hurts.  Doesn’t it?  But now it’s out there with no shame.

Satan is shuddering right now.  He has been counting on the shame keeping you in hiding and not living out the relationship you were meant to have.  Satan is counting on us hiding our unbelief and shaming ourselves so we never get to the place God means for us to live out here on earth.  See from our perspective some people have good hearts some bad.  While some people struggle with pride others struggle with fear or whatever.  We look at each other like her sin is worse than mine or I am glad I don’t struggle with what he does.  But the reality is when God looks down all our hearts are diseased and broken.  We need to realize that in order to wrap our brains around the life God wants for us and that our unbelief will keep us from getting there. 

My daughter was swinging on a gate.  She had all of her weight on the part of the gate that swings when it was all the way open.  Her hand was pinched in between the part that swings and the part that is stationary.  She was screaming for me to come and help her out of her predicament, never realizing she was smashing her own finger with her own weight.  That is what our unbelief is doing to us.  We scream God help me.  Keep me safe, help us out of debt, save me from my addiction but it is our unbelief keeping us from realizing our true identity in Christ.

I know I am supposed to give at least 10% to the church but I don’t believe God is bigger than the U.S. monetary supply. 

I know I am supposed to stay out of debt but I don’t believe God will give me anything better than what I can get on my own.

I don’t even know what I am supposed to do because I don’t open my bible.  I don’t believe it is anything worth reading.

I know I should spend more time with my family but I do not believe God when he says they are gifts.

God says children are blessings but I don’t believe He will provide for them if I have a big family.  

I do not believe God’s love is bigger than my past sin.

I do not believe the Author of my story wrote one worth telling.

I do not believe God will satisfy me more than a new car.

Look at us all wandering in the desert.  Unbelieving, stiff-necked, Israelites waiting for the next miracle.  We are unaware of our own unbelief strangling our faith making our petitions worthless.  If only the Israelites had confessed their unbelief their story would have been different.  Their fate is now sealed but yours is a different story.  What are your actions saying about your belief or unbelief?  Remember they cannot both exist in your heart.