Me-Itis

I was sick yesterday. I had and awful day. I was grumpy, grouchy, and had an infection called me-itis. I am so tired. I have a headache. I have so much to do. I don't have enough time to do it all. It was infectious and spreading fast. Thank God for His good word and the ability for me to look intently on the law and get some spiritual medicine. All I had to do was be so taken up with Him, our Lord Jesus Christ, the Lord of glory to realize it is not about me. My day, my tasks, my children have nothing to do with me. They are all about Him and His gifts He has given me. It is about His glory, the glory, the Lord of glory. How is He my glory in every situation even the ones I think are negatively affecting me in some way.


When I am taking out the trash, how is He my glory?


When I am tested with children tempers, how is He my glory?


When I haven't slept through the night in over a half of a year, how is He my glory?

The one thing I forgot to realize is the Bible is not a self-help book. It is not merely for my benefit. It is ultimately for His glory. It has nothing to do with me. It is about His glory, His perfection, His word, and His perfect plan. Right about now you might be thinking isn't this month and this week about submission and our husbands. Yes, yes it is. I wasn't sure what He wanted me to do. I had been praying about it and feeling very empty. The Spirit wasn't prompting me to do anything and I was feeling concerned. Maybe I had misread what He wanted me to do. Maybe I had gotten it all wrong. I was still waiting with the expectation that He would let me know when I was sure to not miss it. I have read 1 Peter 3:1-6 and Ephesians 5:21-25 over and over. I have read the commentary on them everywhere I could find. I found nothing I could use as a practical application as to what I could do to apply this to my everyday life.


Then I was taken up with Him, His glory, the glory, the Lord of glory. Just amazed at His word and His perfect plan and realized it completely relates to Ephesians 5:21-25. Wives be subject to your husbands, as to the Lord. v. 22 The experience of being in awe of Jesus and what He did for me is one that is indescribable to me. I am to have that same experience and reverence for my husband. Wow. The Holy Spirit is welling up inside of me right now. When I said my vows I had no idea what that meant from a biblical perspective so maybe this is different for you. Understanding God's will for a marriage I realized I needed to tell my husband that I was honored and humbled to be his wife. In the Spirit I told him that. It may not seem like a lot but that was my action for the week. I dedicated my heart to my husband. I felt the experience of understanding the biblical perspective of submission, and how it ultimately is not about me submitting. It is ultimately about glorifying God. I have read the verses over and over again and then I felt the word of God alive and active in me.


I know I said I didn't want this blog to be devotional driven or a lot of reading, but that I wanted it to be convicting to go out and do the thing. It hasn't proven to be that way so far but it will. I am praying all of you have been doing what The Spirit has led you to do. If you haven't felt it yet wait in faith, His promises are always fulfilled.